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[photophobic]

You should know where to find me.
But if you leave a message here, I will see it.

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[photophobic]

You're right to hate it. He had no right to make that decision for you. Leaving you and your daughter to suffer in confusion and abandonment is poor protection. You have every right to your anger.
Just as you have every right to find happiness here. Perhaps finding another version of him here is proof that you are meant for each other after all.

And I'll let you know. Should I ever decide to release any of the poetry I wrote for my 'soul mate'. Perhaps it would be of interest to the two of you.

[solarcharged]

That would be nice. I'd like that. Does the next cover have to be quite so relentlessly black? (That's a joke of course.)

They're lucky to have you, whoever your soul mate is. I'm sorry your family didn't see you in the same way but it sounds like you've found something better here. Much better.

[photophobic]

If I release a volume of poetry about him, the cover will be Light.

[solarcharged]

[ ...NICE /crying ]

Sounds fitting. I hope you do.

And thank you for this. I don't make a habit of texting people about theology/the nature of forgiveness/my love life at 3am, I promise.

[photophobic]

And outside of my work, I rarely open up my secrets. I only share with those who know how to listen.

[Which is... a high compliment, wrapped in Kylo-speak.]

May I ask you one last question. About your love life.

[solarcharged]

Of course you can.

[photophobic]

If you could go back. Right to the beginning. To the Apollo who just found his Midnighter. If you could tell him anything. What would you say.

[solarcharged]

Oh, good question.

I'd say to myself... tell him that he's loved, every day, even when he's being an ass. Especially when he's being an ass, actually.

And I'd warn against how easy it is to take love like ours for granted over the years, because it's easily done. When you share something that feels so innately natural, like breathing or being warm or having all your limbs or being in love, you forget just how ridiculously amazing it is. Taking that for granted is criminal.

[photophobic]

Declare every day lived in love as the miracle it is. Together.

It's good advice.

[solarcharged]

Yes. Poetically put.

[photophobic]

You're with him now?

Perhaps it's time to put the poetry into practice. Both of us.

[solarcharged]

Yeah, I'm with him now (pretty sure he's pretending to be asleep at this point). It's early days for us, we're still figuring things out and I'm not the Apollo he knows. But I don't think either of us want to repeat past mistakes.

I'd say good luck but you don't need it. It's nothing to do with luck. 'Enjoy it' is better, I think.

[ Enjoy loving and being loved!! ]